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its not fair you noe when your bf asked you who you love the most from all your exes or him…
i dont like comparing my loves to everysingle person i was with in the past specially with the one i am with rite now… cos its just never the rite answer for it cos they always have different ways to love someone or to be loved by someone. but then it always feels like the new love is stronger than before but it doesnt feel rite for me to say it cos i dont wuna sounds to corny or even just make an assumption for him to think that im just saying that because im with him…. so pliiis guys dont ask that kinda question to your gf… its just weird…
my love rite now is so different… im trying to be tough n stronger for this one
i have a good faith on my relationship rite now. i dont wuna give up…
but of course there’s qeustions playing around in ma head wether everything worths wut it supposed to.
i am happy with him. we have our ups n downs but im willing to go thru it together.
i am just hoping that he will do the same thing.
well just wish me luck …
imma go now cos im babling all over the place with nonsense hehhee…

she said " no good"
another said " the same mistake u repeating"
he said "i thought u know better than that"
they said " you are blind!"
but ma mom said " honey! you are the only one who knows wut makes you happy! you know wuts right from wrong, wutever path you chosed, you are the one who’s in it. do wtever you think wuts best for you n even thou wutever it is seems to be wrong for everybody else even me, i want you to be happy but i dont want you go too far from your belief"
see… ma mom always know how to put words together to make it easier for anybody take it.
i know im not always make my family n frens proud of wut ive done or wut im doing.
but you know its part of my journey where i have to find all of the answers im lookin for n making mistakes n learn from them n how to fix them.
when they said they know wuts better for me n im doing everythings wrong, but then when yu look at back on their lives… they’re just doing the same exact things… y would i wuna listen?
people only jugde wut other people doin wrong without look at themselves in the mirror n think about wut they’re doin wrong.
you know wut! im tired listening to people telling me how to do my life.
i am happy for who i am, wut i am, n where i am rite now.
sometimes i think n look back that… y im living my life for everybodyelse but my self?
i hate being selfish… but sometimes you just have to be.
n you noe…. girls are very emotional n i dont even noe if wut im writing rite now based on emotion or clear mind… but i just noe that its how i feel rite now.
i noe that everybody prob talkin shit bout my life rite now or even they whom they called my family
thats how life are i guess…
my mom is the number one person in my life that i care the most…
my dad? he eh… i dont even noe wut i have to think about him…
the most irresponsible person that i ever known in my entire life..
all he thinks about is his own good n everybody else is wrong.
no wonder his family fell apart… huh.. not my fault…
hmmm……..  wut else about my life?