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juz want to share with you all about my recent update….

i am better… so for whoever that worry bout my situation… i am fine

i am trying to get my license cos i already got my ATT letter from the state

yes…. i am single… n lookin forward to date again….

so for anybody who wants to hang out?! i am down….

i guess you guys right… i need to enjoy this freedom

i was holding myself back for being someone that i am not… thats wrong

now i realise how much i miss all the beauty… n cute guys… hehe j/k

i was feeling down for the fact that im divorced in a very young age…

i was ashame of myself…BUT… i wont regret it

i made my decision to b married n divorced cos it wasnt working…

its a good thing there’s no kids involved so….

im blessed to have all my friends behind me n all my loving family of course

i love you guys… n believe me…

i will not let another guy put me down n make me feel stupid being with him

becoz i am strong… i am me… n i will never change my self into Not me

i will find someone who can appreciate me for who i am or what i am

yes i am asian… i dont have a blonde hair, light skin… color eye… or wutever

but i am proud to be me… to be Mei2…

i am sorry made some of you worried… but i am better… n will b much better

hey… im over this dude… he’s lost… n im gone…

thanks to you all….. mei2 love you…

have you ever feel like you are not whole?

when you are used to something complete and half pieces went to different direction…

you left incomplete…

and even thou you were half before you knew the other half…

and it completed you…. now you want it stay that way…

maybe i can find a million reasons not to be with you…

but none of those matter… coz i wont care….

it only takes one reason to be with someone….

but does he still want to pick up the pieces which left broken?

dose he? no…. he doesnt!

heart….

its ok to give it another shot!

everything will be better!

you want to be with him!

you are miserable  without him…

your heart is never wrong… for your own sake

head…

dont! you will get hurt! even worst!

he doesnt care bout you…  all he care just his own happiness…

you are miserable … dont make it worst!

listen to your mother!

please dont let your emotion takes control of yourself…

ketika batas itu tiba… aku tak dapat menunggu… dimana hati bertarung akan apa yang diinginkan…

lihat lah kepingan ini… hatiku yang rapuh…

detik lalu berpikir tuk terus berjalan… dan sesaat berpikir tuk menoleh

Tuhan… apa yang Kau sediakan untuk ku diujung sana…

akankan ku dapat meraih kotak kebahagiaan yang telah tersedia?

mengapa pertarungan ini menghancurkan hatiku?

aku lelah menapak jalan yang penuh duri…

hanyalah torehan luka yang kudapati

diapun tidak menoleh tuk mencari kepergianku…

biarkan lah dia pergi… meninggalkan ku disini dibatas peleburan

bukalah pintu baru dan hapuslah jejaknya dihatiku…

tolonglah…

gotta change my anwering machine, now that im alone

coz rite now it says that we, cant come to the phone

n i noe it makes no sense cos u walked out the door

but its the only way i could hear your voice anymore…

its ridiculous…  its been months n 4 sum reasons i just…

cant get over us… and im stronger than this.

enough is enough… no more walkin round with my head down

im so over being blue … crying over you…

cos im so sick of love songs so tired of tears

so done with wishing you were still here

cos im so sick of love songs so sad n slow

so y cant i turn off the radio…

gotta fix that calender i have, thats marked october 10th

becuz there is no more you, there’s no more anniversary

im so fed up with ma thoughts of you n ur memories

n how everysongs remainds me what it used to be…

leave me alone…. stupid love songs…

dont make me think about his smiles or..

or having ma 1st child… just let it go…turning off the radio…

giliran gw dah mo lupain… bonyok nya nelpon n bilang

mery dia masih sayang n kayanya dia nyesel deh atas keputusannya…

well guess what?! dont yu think its a little late for that…

setelah usahanya balik ma mantannya n ditolak trus mo balik ma gw gitu… hahaha

lo kira gw ban serep enak aja…

mak nya bilang dia nangis duduk dilantai n nanya apa sehariusnya dia terima gw balik?

hah gak salah tuh? yg mo balik ma lu tu sape? ih gw mah ogaaaaaaaah…

keluarga gw tuh n temen2 gw yg sayang ma gw dah siap gebukin lo sampe babak belur tau, sayang aja kalo disini mereka bisa masuk penjara…

mendingan lo cepet dah pindah ke luar propinsi sana, biar gw gak liat muka butek lo lagi… sekarang gw dah maju…. gw gak mau disibukin ma sakit hati yg gak jelas juntrungannya lagi..

cowo bukan lo aja…. masih banyak yg ngantri di depan rumah gw (nagih utang) hak hak hak

ah… gw seneng banget deh udah bangkit dari kesengsaraan…

karna temen2 gw yg banyak support n bantuin gw…

yg ikut doain gw biar lebih tegar n baik2 aja…

trima kasih ku kepada….ato, dim2, indri, harry tentunya yg smsin gw tiap hari bikin gw lebih tegar, keluarga gw yg utama, sepupu gw gita, tante2ku tercinta, bunda yg lagi kerja…. dan semua temen2 di ACC yg ngajakin gw jalan2 n traktir2 sekalian hehehe….

love you guys… itulah perkembangan perasaan gw saat ini…

masih banyak lagi kok air matanya, bukan berarti gw gak bakalan nangis loh, tapi yah … seenggaknya gak kaya sebelomnya. talk with u guys latez…