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you said that you never said what i told you lastnight?

i was wrong n nuthing’s goin on?

you both full of shits ok

one is letting you having expectations

n you… for swearing u didnt but you did…

if you dont then why you are worrying…

cos you did then now i knew… but its already too late..

i said goodbye, you said no…. well it is goodbye for us…

i have all my frens standing behind me to support me get thru this

who u have? just your mom n her? poor guy..

you are the most pathetic n the cheapest guy i ever known in the whole universe

manwhore like they said….

jump out to quick to another ship…

well good luck with the life you choosen… just dont regret it

cos i am gone…. forever…

what else can i do huh?

i am sick n tired of all the shits thats been goin on…

i dont want to deal with this anymore…

like i told you last nite, i am just gonna let go

thats why i said goodbye…

no more talking, phonecalls, seeing each other, texting each other

none of those…

stop it n quit everything.

u said i’ve been playing? well guess what…

who’s been played so far? me!!!

n i am done being stupid…

i dont want this anymore

i will stop hoping, wishing, crying, dreaming wutever that i was doing

cos like you said rite… just a mistake…

then i will take it n deal with this myself…

no more us….

we are over now…. completely over… n stupid me… i just ended now…

when my heart is already torn apart…

like bon jovi said…

there’s one thing i hang on to to get me thru the nite

i aint guna do what i dont want to, i am guna live my life

shining like a diamond, rollin with the dice

standing on the edges show the wind how to fly…

when the world’s in my face then i say… have a nice day…

it hurts knowing that all this time has passed by full of lies

all you were doing were just pretending to be something you never were

you pretended to love me

you pretended to be happy

you pretended to belief what you never did

you pretended like you like being yourself but you never did

you pretended the way you feel about me

you pretended that you were lucky

you pretended to be supportive partner

i am tired n hurted that i am now realizing that those are lies

you regret all the things that had happened

you blame me for everything

i am tired to be me and i dont want to face the fact that you are just pretender

i am sorry for your unhappiness…

but people need to realise that they make mistakes like we all do

so i am sorry for not being someone you always expected me to be

but i never regret everything we had…. n i am sorry that it has to end this way

but i will stop blaming my self for all these.

coz i am not the only one who made mistakes… but we both did

may be you should correct yourself and look back a little…

try to stand for yourself without nobody behind you

you cant even stand up alone without someone behind you

you need to grow up and face things as an adult….

you said i only think about my self?! you know what you dont even realise the things i did for the both of us…

i will not let you brainwash me by saying its all my faults no more

cos its not!

you said you’re using your brain? you know what…. as long as your brain compromise with your heart, its not gonna be a problem..

but it seems like your brain and your heart going in the different directions…

so yeah just be happy without me…. cos i will be!!!

sayonara

i wont see your smile n i wont hear your laugh anymore

everynight i wont see you walk thru that door

cause time wasnt onyour side, it isnt right i cant say i love you

its too late too tell you but i really need you to know

no i’ll never forget you, i will never let you out of my heart

you will always be here with me, i’ll hold on to the memories

do you know how it feels lying here without you

you could never undrstand whats happening to me

so alone… nuthins real…

i just dream about you baby and forever wonder why you have to break free

its so hard to believe i dont have you here beside me

as i long to touch you but you are out of my reach

and my heart doesnt feel

it so very cold inside me

just a shadow of someone that i used to be

you were the only one that i allowed inside my heart

now im just holding on to something so far gone

where did i go wrong…?

do you really seriously think that people who love each other will be better if they r not together?

please answer this question… pliss anybody give a comment about this one…

regardles bout all the fights, tears, surprises, everysingle things that had happened…

do you think that 1 year is enough to jugde a relationship if it’s gunna last or not?

2 toatally different people from 2 totally different worlds who of course always have their differences…

dont you think that they need time to adjust each other? to fill whats missing? to complete their needs?

why life is so unfair? why everything has to be this difficult?

why a communication can be so damn hard?

why people fallen in love just to get hurt in return?

im sick on all of it…

why people expect too much in a relationship?

nobody’s perfect… thats why we need partnership… to complete whats missing in one another.

why im hurting? why im crying?

why cant i just get over this feeling?

i wanna kill it cos im sick of roken hearted…

for whoever who believe in a relationship n togetherness… please comment this post… im begging you pliss.. help me make my decision n help me to move on…

haruskah aku memuntahkannya?

atau harus kutelan sendiri bulat2?

namun rasanya teramat pahit…

sampai akhirnya harus kulemparkan

karena terlalu membebani pikiran

Ada yang basah disana… dan koyak…

entah dapat kering dan merapat kembali

kuputuskan tuk mengoyakmu karena tak dapat menahan getaranku

seandainya saja kudapat berjernih diri

mungkin kau takkan mengalir

mereka yang membuatku exist…

mereka pula yang membuatku ingin pergi

Sendirian tanpa petunjuk

bertemankan kesunyian dan kegelapan

tanpa cahaya disekelilingku

Aku benci diri ini!

yang begitu lemah menghadapi hidup

hanya bersama kamar ini…

musik yang mengalun tampa henti

dan coretan2 di diary ini

Aneh…

hidup ditempat konyol

aku lelah meneruskan permainan ini…

ps: all that i want in my life… just the feeling of peace deep within me truly!

semua itu takkan pernah terlupakan

dan menjadi kegelapan bagiku

saat dimana melihat mereka tertawa

meninggalkanku yang menunggu

Mengapa disaat kucoba menata kembali

kepingan2 hatiku

saat itulah kepingan2 itu menjadi debu

yang menggumpal dan membuatku sesak

ingin kucoba berdiri dengan kekuatanku

ia datang dan kemudian mencampakkanku

bagaikan sampah dalam hari2nya

dimana ia telah temukan lembaran barunya

dan ketika aku ingin melupakan arti menyayangi itu

kudipaksa tuk buka hatiku lagi

hanya untuk terpuruk kembali….

ps: love is a waste of time…. im sick and tired of it…shiiiiiiiit!!!

tangan itu terulur…

untukku?…hmm…

keraguan menyelimuti dalam kebisuan malam

kuraih tangan yang terulur itu… enggan….

menatap sejenak kemudian kuberanjak

terus menyusuri jalan setapak ini…

hanya berbekal genggam tanganmu dan bisikan hatiku

hingga penyesalan untuk semua yang ada…

kitapun tersesat

dalam kegelapan ini…

dingin…. dan perih…

ps: im tired of being hurt!!!

aku disini gelisah mencintaimu

diambang batas senja tanpa batas waktu

aku disini berbaur dengan ombak

yang membawa butir pasir putih

kedalam lautan malam nan kelam

di temaram senja kupejamkan mata tuk melupakanmu sejenak

dari cintaku…

tuk menghapus nama dan parasmu

yang terukir dalam jauh dihatiku

ps: yah apalah artinya cinta tanpa kebersamaan

i love you baby… and i know u know dat.

things havent been working between u but it wont stop me from loving you

i noe i have been pain in ur ass for the past years and you still welcome me into your arms.

now i noe dat im losing you… i never feel any pain dat hurt like this.

people said that u will never realise how much you love someone till u lost dat person.

guess what? they are right.

im losing my heart, my soul, my breath, my everything…

you are taking my life away from me…

taking the only person i always wanted… to hug… to kiss…and to say goodnite untill the morning comes…

maybe im not the person u always wanted… but i am here… and i am not going anywhere…